tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post112897888081777247..comments2023-06-29T04:55:38.985-04:00Comments on Hydrangeas are pretty: In my midnight confessions....Shellihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03159550437519461534noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129144216691790152005-10-12T15:10:00.000-04:002005-10-12T15:10:00.000-04:00Shelli,I'm sorry that you are having such a rough ...Shelli,<BR/>I'm sorry that you are having such a rough time. Trying to get (and stay) pg doesn't help either, as of course it is so easy to think that a tray of brownies will make it better.<BR/>I hope that you are able to get it under control again. Good luck!Estellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12133147419963948340noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129140276797237352005-10-12T14:04:00.000-04:002005-10-12T14:04:00.000-04:00Shelli:My thoughts are with you. I just started w...Shelli:<BR/><BR/>My thoughts are with you. I just started ww myself (2nd time in 2 years) and have been struggling with the realization that I have an eating disorder myself. I've been working on a post about it but not sure I can actually talk about it yet. I think you're amazing and brave and I've been so glad that I found your blog.Tristahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14311067451966242570noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129075401892244282005-10-11T20:03:00.000-04:002005-10-11T20:03:00.000-04:00food issues are so complicated, aren't they? i ga...food issues are so complicated, aren't they? i gained 65 lbs between when i met my husband in early 2000 and when i got pregnant the first time (may 2004). weirdly, because i've been so sick in the early stages of both pregnancies, i'm down 20 lbs (well, maybe 18 now, after the 2 1/2 bags of reese's miniatures...) from where i was at the first conception, but i'm sure the longer i go without being pregnant, the more my weight will creep back up. food is never simple, but your determination is admirable.<BR/><BR/>go on and fight the good fight!<BR/><BR/>(p.s. does it help to know that gummy bears are made from gelatin, which is a by-product of commercial slaughtering, made from animal hides and bones? thought that might gross you out enough to lose your taste for them...)laurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12650967136734094216noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129065654022328202005-10-11T17:20:00.000-04:002005-10-11T17:20:00.000-04:00smooches smooches smooches to you dear Shelli........smooches smooches smooches to you dear Shelli.........please know that we're always here for you, no matter what.......Shttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03784823185795103613noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129041466105985032005-10-11T10:37:00.000-04:002005-10-11T10:37:00.000-04:00You are brave and strong. We both know the first s...You are brave and strong. We both know the first step in getting to what you want it talking about it... bravo. You have my support and love.cathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05499558026064730483noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129039381728243842005-10-11T10:03:00.000-04:002005-10-11T10:03:00.000-04:00Just wanted to let you know you're not alone.Just wanted to let you know you're not alone.Jenniferhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09238624514348644973noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129038729881989172005-10-11T09:52:00.000-04:002005-10-11T09:52:00.000-04:00Thinking of youGood LuckThinking of you<BR/><BR/>Good LuckBebuhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09644431090453703417noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129036731832957042005-10-11T09:18:00.000-04:002005-10-11T09:18:00.000-04:00Shelli- man, it is freaky. I am 29 & in the midst...Shelli- man, it is freaky. I am 29 & in the midst of a Saturn Return myself. (just started reading about it a few weeks ago so I got chills when you mentioned it.)<BR/>I also had food issues. (I stopped eating when I started NYU b/c suddenly I was happy. Before only food made me happy) The past two years I got so healthy. Lost weight, started to eat really well & I quit smoking. (One of my New Year's resolutions is to START smoking next year if I am still not pg. I miss it. Or maybe I just miss the me that used to smoke.)<BR/>Ok - what I wanted to say was - I HEAR you. TTC fucks you up. All bets are off. I dare anyone with food issues to not revisit old patterns while trying to emotionaly deal with vagina issues.<BR/>I think you are strong and brave & wonderful. You are being so honest with yourself. I think Narda would know just how to catch you.<BR/>xxooCalliopehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05926986916101638078noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129026788382912832005-10-11T06:33:00.000-04:002005-10-11T06:33:00.000-04:00Shelli...I'm so with you on this one... I have a p...Shelli...<BR/><BR/>I'm so with you on this one... I have a past history of bulimia... and I can honestly say I haven't purged in about a year. We (DH and I) are actively ttc and of course... we've had an ectopic and a miscarriage in the 6 months we've been trying. I've maintained my weight - but I'm on the high end rather than the low end... and god how food really really makes me feel terrible. I eat fairly healthy but I don't exercise... how the heck to get motivated... <BR/><BR/>I wish you well in your struggles... We both know it's worth it... it's just sometimes easier to bury our heads in the sand sometimes isn't it? <BR/><BR/>Lots of luck... and keep your chin up... Let Narda know what's going on... she'll help. <BR/><BR/>SamSamihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17571824699335677531noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1129021021489505172005-10-11T04:57:00.000-04:002005-10-11T04:57:00.000-04:00Hi Shelli! I'm also delightfully rounded (hee hee)...Hi Shelli! I'm also delightfully rounded (hee hee) and doing pre-conception. I've lost 8 kgs so far - about 18 lbs I think that is? I'm joining WW again next week and starting to walk home from work a couple of days a week. I find it really hard to lose, I think partly because I don't actually mind my body being fat, I'm healthy and my partner loves me to death. If only my self esteem were lower! LOL One thing I'm doing that has helped me start to have healthier eating habits (not that they were bad anyway - pretty much the same as you describe with the lasagne) is deciding to eat mainly organic and bio-dynamic foods. I've been shopping at the organic markets on Saturday mornings which is just so inspiring and it basically rules out anything packaged to eat, which usually has lots of fats and sugars and additives. Organic food is more expensive, so I value it more. This helps lots with sticking to meal plans (I don't let any of my organic stuff go to waste) and portion sizes. Don't know if this is of any help to you, but good luck!<BR/>PS I'm drinking so much fertility tea I don't have room for anything else too ;-)Mermaidgrrrlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14236621711615287305noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1128999098307073262005-10-10T22:51:00.000-04:002005-10-10T22:51:00.000-04:00Okay...this is totally off track, but I wonder if ...Okay...this is totally off track, but I wonder if Narda and my BF MAH know each other. I clicked the google link on Narda and saw she did a stint at Seattle Rep. So did MAH...weird...6 degrees and all...<BR/><BR/><BR/>About the weight....well, I have my own weight problems. I have never managed to cut out sugar. I lost a lot of weight while living in NYC, walking most places, doing WW and with a little help from my friend phentermine and my lovely lovely friends cigarettes on the side. Ah, I will forever miss cigarettes. My writing has gone to shit without them. <BR/><BR/>I don't know what to tell you. You know that if you WANT to do it you will. It just sucks. Personally, I've always been a fan of the one meal a day diet. Eat one meal a day and during that meal eat whatever you want.Roxannehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08915721334800247580noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1128997792234724272005-10-10T22:29:00.000-04:002005-10-10T22:29:00.000-04:00Wow, we share incredibly similar stories - please ...Wow, we share incredibly similar stories - please know that I share in your ups and downs and wish you all the very best.<BR/><BR/>Chin up doll... one day at a time.<BR/><BR/>KAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1128995403548917342005-10-10T21:50:00.000-04:002005-10-10T21:50:00.000-04:00Thinking of you and wishing you all the power and ...Thinking of you and wishing you all the power and strength you need to get to where you want to be.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998040.post-1128988561655024962005-10-10T19:56:00.000-04:002005-10-10T19:56:00.000-04:00Thinking of you.Thinking of you.Jenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11224642287915799144noreply@blogger.com